Dear Journal, In exactly four hours, I will be perform-ing at the 2018 Gospel Music Awards. In addition to per-forming, I will also be present-ing an award, as well as be in the running for Artist of the Year. I have never been this nervous and excited in my life. I truly wish that my boyfriend, Jake, and my best friends, Elizabeth and Mae were here in California with me, as well as getting to see the show. After being apart from them for two months, and I miss them greatly. Now more than ever, I wish they were here to tell me that I am going to do great, as well as remind me that everything is going to be okay. It may be due to extreme nerves, or anxiety, but I am un-certain about tonight going well.