Come with Me If You Dare

My purpose of this summary is to introduce myself and character. Thank you in advance for taking the time to read my document. I come from a strict background family of 15 children with my father who passed away when I was at the age of 16. I knew nothing about nothing concerning life experiences and how to deal with different issues. The only thing we were allowed to do was to go to school and church and we had not friends because we were not allowed to. We were very sheltered and withdrawn from the society. After my father dies in May of 1969, I believe is here it all began with the destruction in our family. It seems my mother was as sheltered and withdrawn as we were. My father over protected us all more tan we probably needed to be. As a result we all seen to have gone tumbling down very fast especially me being I was very close to him. One thing he told me before he died was my ex-husband (whom I net when he was sick and fell overhead for madly in love first and only love of my life). I do not listen to him my ex-husband was taking the place of my father as it seem today than I did not realize that. I had my first child in 1968, my second in 1970 and the last not prepared to have my son in 1972. Not long after that my life began to fall apart because I had no knowledge on how to deal with a man of my ex-husband kind he was suppose to love me and my children that's what I saw my father do all our life and take care of us. To make the long story short he was a playboy, a drug dealer and you name it he claimed it. It was too late (I thought) I have three children by him and my father is gone. I have never been close to my mother or anyone in the family just my father. So I put up with all the abuse and his nasty life had to offer and made it my life until I got tired. When I got tired I started fighting back (the wrong way) doing things to hurt him (not realizing I would hurt the most in the long run). I was a drinker, tool pills, stole from him and wrote up check then pain I endure with my children. I cant remember what I did not do and at the time I did not care I did anything that would take me away from the problem and him and on top of it all it would hurt him dearly since I was the lady everyone thought was on that red carpet of doing no wrong. Mrs. Righteous was wearing devil ear sticking up. How stupid that was! My God if I can go back and know what I know today familiar words, right? I am so sorry I choose that route. I asked God over and over again forgive me and my children. I can't began neither can words express how I feel about the hurt I brought on my children for no justifiable reason for the sake of love, I thing not for the sake of being so naïve which you can call dumb. I am so grateful and thankful that I was given a 2nd chance to have a life more bundle. Thank God for the grace and mercy. I was able to get myself together going back to school, educate myself learning about all addiction in the family. How to use of anything (other than deal with the know situation) is a way of medicated the situation to keep from feeling down in it which took me into depression. I now know many constructive ways to accommodate a bad situation or any and all uninvited circumstances or people who are not yet there. Today I can say my life is completely different, I love working with people of all kinds D (color, race, religion). I have a passion for people with a disability especially after seeing a sister and grandchild who grew up with eyes (which is to the soul of your heart) no one seems to understand but my passion and love was driven to and what they need knew how much could related as we did. The love and affection they needed and to be understood with patience. Not only the disability but also seniors, runaway teens, suicidal and the under privilege. I made a hotline you can call for anyone who just needs to talk with someone to get t